wow it has been ages.....

wow....it really has been a long time.....

well you see, i got sick. i didn't know i was sick. at the time. i just felt sick and tired and like the idiot i am did NOT go to the doctors. anyway it takes weeks to get into my doc. so why bother....most things just go away on there own. this did. eventually. what i didn't know was that i had been really, really sick and just got lucky that i got better on my own.

i have this new plan of making a standing doctors appointment for every month and then canceling if nothing comes up. it is a plan and everything.

so now i am feeling better. i would have felt better sooner if i had just gone to the doctor that the time. turns out they give you med cine.....

so. tonight i just can't sleep. i am upset and worried and upset. about work. i like my current job (even though i know i should be moving on....yeah i DO know). i work very, very hard to do my best. always trying to be the best i can be. not that i know if i am actually doing anything right.

turns out i only get a talking to when i do something wrong.....so i kinda have to assume i am doing the right thing. or wait for some gossip about myself. they really like to bitch about each other at my work place. i try to stay out of it. that's one of the major reasons for not becoming too close to your work mates people. less chances of a knife in the back hurting so much.

today i got a stab. over something so trivial it is not even worth mentioning.

do make me think a bit more about getting the old PhD done and back to working for myself again.

nearly impossible to stab yourself in the back.. although with my luck i could some how manage to fall and stab myself.


soooo....i hope your all well.


that was kinda awkward wasn't it? if our can't write what you really think in a blog what is the whole point of a anything.

and i didn't name names or anything

*sigh*

alright...going to sleep now.

*wave*