I am not sure what Tarot is but it wasn’t what i expected

My mother gave me an unusual gift. It was a Tarot reading. I was not sure what this was, exactly. I had only the vaguest idea. I also was a little worried as i am a firm advocate in not enabling non-scientific pursuits. I am trying to put this so i don’t offend those who believe in such things or antagonise those who don’t. Not because i am a fence sitter but because i believe that people have the right to their own belief system. As long as they don’t harm others. Or burn books. I am pretty strong on both counts.

I don’t really understand the “lingo” of these things. So please excuse my poor analysis. I can only hear it the way i hear things and explain it with my own words and experiences. Apparently this is exactly that i am supposed to do (at such things). Talking to my mum and aunt after it seems that we all had very different experiences (and reactions). To me it goes like this:

Say you have something on your mind. The Tarot reading is like a waking dream. Where a dream is the processing of activities/worries/thoughts/feelings. Except this last a lot longer. And you’re awake. Then when the card reader tells you the story of the cards they speak to you in so much as you are talking to yourself.

The lady didn’t do that psychic thing of telling me about myself or my future. I think it was just a way for my unconscious thoughts to be expressed. The cards tell a story that i wanted to hear. I didn’t ask direct questions. She said she would try to answer me if i did. But i didn’t want to.

IT TOTALLY FREAKED ME OUT

Seriously . I cried. It was like i was being asked to express my greatest fears. Suddenly. To a stranger. When i should have been having afternoon tea. I hadn’t even realised that i had such deep seated worries! Especially when she said:

“Your perfectionism will destroy you. Much like a heroin addict you will crawl across broken glass, ignore other people and their needs and live only for that perfection until you get what you want.”

Seriously, this totally freaked me out. She wasn’t saying not to do the best i can. Rather she was reminding me that i shouldn’t harm myself or others in the process. There was a lot of stuff that was too personal for me to share with anyone (apparently that is also something i have to work on).

She did say i am in for a bit of romance though. I think this was mostly to cheer me up *grin*.

Anyway. I am pretty sure i will never do anything like that again. It was an experience though. I could do with a bit of romance though ...