My first post.

I think the title says it all really.

I think of myself as a recovering addict. From what is not important. The need to write again is important to me. I am the least happeist writer in the world but it needs to be done. I can move on when it is done. Even if it never turns out to be a completed PhD at least publish all my research material and move on with my life.

This is a way to be honest with myself. I need no audience or have a harsher critic than myself.

I love the dougles adams quote:

I love deadlines. I love the whooshing sound they make as they go by

It sums up how i think about the writing process. But i know i can do it because i have papers and conference things DONE. I have met programming and research deadlines. Just not this one thing that means such a lot to those around me to have not failed at.